Wow I can not believe that's it's back to this part of the road. Arghhh I feel like every two years I reconnectnwith my ex and all the work that I put into forgetting my feelings for him come rushing back. I swear if this is pike some preview of it life for the next 5 years then I'm officially screwed. I'm not sure anymore if I didn't love him when I think about him all the time. I've lied to myself and I've lied to others when I said I didn't care about him as a boyfriend.